January lasted way too long for my liking and I'm over the moon that it's finally February. I like February; 1. because it's not January 2. because it's one step closer to sunnier mornings and warmer days. I really struggled throughout Jan... I was low on money, the view out of my window at work was grey, foggy and rainy every day and it felt like I never saw any sun light.
I'm desperate to book a holiday. The thought of being somewhere hot with the freedom of doing what I want and not feeling guilty to lie horizontally for 8 hours whilst sipping on a pina colada, could almost make me sob with happiness. Sometimes it makes me feel a tad depressed when you work full time, working towards at least one holiday a year and even that seems a struggle. That's what I wanted to touch on, as a twenty something living (just outside) of London and working in London, you feel the pressure to be constantly living your best ever life.
You feel like you should be going to THAT bar, or THAT restaurant on saturday night, going for avocado on toast and an almond milk rose latte which costs £30.00 for sunday brunch, booking several weekends away, going on a paradise holiday, constantly adding to your savings account, excelling in your career annnnnd managing your relationships. If you're not managing all of that, then you're doing something wrong.
The FOMO you get once you go onto Instagram and someone has been to that brunch place that has been on your list for the last six months, or someone else has gone travelling the same route has you’ve been dreaming about. It's not even FOMO, it's anxiety. Anxiety you're not successful enough, that you're not achieving enough. This generation is so obsessed with money and everything is judged depending on how expensive it is. It’s easy to forget that the £4.99 full English INCLUDING COFFEE from that greasy cafe down the road is actually so much more delicious than your £30 avo on toast from the instagrammable coffee shop in Notting Hill, or that you’d rather go to your local pub on Saturday night for a few glasses of standard Rose, which is more fun than that edgy sushi restaurant in Shoreditch. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not always the case.. but a lot of the time it is.
There are so many things I want to do and achieve in my life, especially while I’m young with minimal responsibilites. However, I need to remind myself that there isn’t a rush, and I shouldn’t load so much pressure on myself to do everything before I’m 25. I do want to start saving money, to move out and (potentially) go travelling at some point, I do want to work through my list of restaurants and cafes, I want to go on Safari in Africa, I want to possibly one day buy myself a Chloe bag... there's a random mixture there but I will achieve them at some point. Whether that's is in 5 years, 10 years, or 20 years. These things will come in time, it's easy to forget to actually enjoy life and moment you're in.
Most of the time, it's the smaller things in life that make you happy.
I'm excited for the rest of the year and what it will bring, I'm trying my best to have a positive outlook on most aspects of my life now, it makes things a lot easier.
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